I have a tough time on Mother’s Day every year so it really made my day when I woke up to a special little card and gift. I laughed and then I cried. Oh, how I love him so.
Well, we’ve officially started testing for this crazy little baby making journey!
Jay and I went for our blood work last weekend and it was just another reminder that dudes have it easier during this whole process! They took 8 vials of blood from me and a whopping 2 from him.
Everyone’s given blood before – so it was really no big deal. The most painful part of the whole process was the tape on my arm giving me a little rash. It happens everytime I give blood and they use that medical tape – I guess I’m allergic to the adhesive or something. I was just so excited to finally get a move on these tests I forgot to tell them to just use a bandiad – my bad!
Every year in May, the fine folks at SunFest put on a 5 day festival along the intercoastal in downtown West Palm Beach. From open to close every day, bands perform on 3 stages throughout the event, making it one of the best concert experiences to look forward to each year. We didn’t think we’d be able to attend this year since we’re saving up for IVF, but we were lucky enough to win tickets online from Seminole Casino Coconut Creek so we were able to go for 3 out of the 5 days! We had so much fun and my feet are still killing me from all of the walking we did.
My love and I.
I was especially pumped because the first day, I got to see one of my all time favorite bands: Counting Crows!
Adam Duritz of Counting Crows
Adam Duritz of Counting Crows
To top it off, my bestie and her hubby won a complete VIP experience in another contest, so we were able to enjoy some of each of the three days hanging out with them, too!
This is my bestie and this is me sweaty!
Other bands we had the pleasure of seeing live were , Joan Jett and the Blackhearts, The Mighty Mighty Bosstones, All American Rejects, Sister Sparrow and The Dirty Birds, Third Eye Blind, LP, Passion Pit and Girl Talk. All in all it was an awesome weekend!
The past couple of years have been a welcomed break from the emotional chaos TTC had bestowed upon me. The grief of being childless was still there, but there hasn’t been as constant a reminder as there is now that we’re back in the saddle (pun intended). Dealing with infertility is such a strange emotional journey that leads you on physical and emotional roller coaster that at times leaves you wondering how you’ll ever get through it. I haven’t felt that way in a really long time and for the most part I’m optimistic that stepping up fertility treatments will work and we’ll finally get what we’ve been waiting such a long time for; but occasionally, even fleetingly, I get scared. I wonder if I’ll feel as crazy as I did last time on all those drugs. I worry about all the different procedures (namely being put under for the first time). I wonder how we’re going to manage to pay for all of the treatments. Then there’s the waiting. Ugh – the waiting is terrible! Can I just get the dang appointments scheduled already?! Maybe that’ll ease some of my worries. Maybe it’s just this being stuck in limbo that’s driving me nuts. Maybe it’s just that Mother’s Day is a week and a half away and I always feel this way this time of year.
Since we met with our RE at the end of March, we’ve saved almost $1,000 and in the next couple of weeks will have enough saved to get the remainder of our preliminary testing done! We can finally schedule the last of our tests and get this baby making show on the road. Bloodwork is scheduled for this weekend and next week our clinic is holding a seminar about IVF and they’re going to talk about financing and all that jazz so hopefully that’ll ease some of my worries. Next up we have to update Jason’s SA and schedule my HSG (eek!).
In honor of Infertility Awareness Week, I put together this little video inspired by the “Shit ____ Say” meme. I hope you enjoy!
